31 Day Blog Challenge
Packing up some of maaah things :D
hehehe. My working station 😀
waaa. i don’t know what to pack. huhuhuhu.
while cleaning I saw this! hahaha. my eyeglasses. Hmmm. 2nd year pa ito nung huling ginamit ko :)))
Weee. I.D Lace :))) nakakaexcite na hindi pumasok sa college :))) swear lang! 🙂
waaaaaaaaaaah. this is it! Hello Manila Bye Bulacan! huhuhuhu. College na ako >.<
clean.clean.clean :D
see the difference? 😀
What is Love?
As I look up on the sky, a question suddenly popped up in my mind. While searching for an answer, something fell down in form of a shower. Does that happen to answer the question in my mind? Well, if that is, then what is the answer? What does that suppose to mean?
Love is happiness. It is being with him every time. Spending time with him makes everything special. He means a lot to me, he lights up my world in his own special ways. I can’t believe he can still do that even if I decided to leave him. But then, that happiness that we once had doesn’t last for a long time but as long as I treasure those moments. I knew that it will last forever, forever here in my heart.
Love is smiling when you hear that person’s voice. I can still remember the times when we always had a phone call. I love his voice so much, the way he said those three words gives me so much happiness. But the fact that he can’t say those anymore kills me. I want him back, I want to hear his voice, and I want him to utter those three words again. Three words, eight letters say it again so that I can be yours again.
Love is pain; breaking his heart also breaks my heart. He hated me for doing that but I don’t hate him. I know that I deserve that. I caused him so much pain, but I know I did the right thing. Even if I wanted to tell him how much I love him I cannot. I wasted my time, I know I chose the right thing to do but it seems like I chose the wrong one. I want to ease this pain in my heart. I want to forget everything about him, but I love him so much that it pains my heart whenever I want to forget him. I want him to stay but I know he can’t do that. He really can’t.
Love is selfish; I want him to spend time with me, to focus his life with me alone. I want him again, I know that, that would be so selfish but heck is that Love? I love him so much that I don’t want to let go of him, but I have to because of some events that occurred in my life. I’m selfish, I know, because of him I closed my heart to someone else thinking that he’s the best person I could ever have. I hope that he’ll come back. Bogoshipoda, Saranghae. I want him to love me again but that cannot happen again. I feel sorry for myself because I can’t let him go.
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Faith Hanna Mendoza
April and May 2013
Waaaaah. Unfinished business ang drama ng essay ko. Paano ba naman kasi tooot. Hahaha. Nakaka walang gana kapag walang inspiration. Charot lang!!! J))) hehehe. Ayan para sa mga nang iwan 😀 yung essay na ito para nga pala kay EX to :DDD
Self-actualization (Xelfualizee)
LLEXTER RANDALL HENDRIX
4th period 11th grade
Life Management
Essay: Write a paper about Maslow’s self-actualization
A desire for fulfilment.
Reaching our great potential.
To become something that we’re capable of.
Self-Actualization.
We all know that most of us want something reasonable to achieve. Something that will make us a well-defined person. Maslow’s belief on self-actualization gave us a guide on how we will achieve the great side of our well being that we didn’t know that’s in us in the first place.
To be realistic is one. In this world…
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Oh crap, Ms. Jyles, I’m writing my real paper now. Enough with all the formality because my paper’s getting boring. I actually dozed off while I was writing this paper. No offence, but Maslow puts me to sleep. Come on! I know the guy’s great and all, being all smart on having to start this whole self-actualization thing. I did admire the dude, and just like him, I was trying to reach my full potential (whatever that is) by following such lame and straight rules.
He said to be a self-actualized person, you have to be realistic. It’s easy for him to say that we need to be realistic on what we do in life. But seriously, do we even know what’s real and what’s not in this world? Maybe we are living in a parallel universe at the moment, would you even know if we’re being fair in life?
Self-acceptance is another way to be self-actualized. Well, a lot of people try to accept who they are. When you think about it, how do you accept yourself anyway? By having a peace of mind and trying to put the fact that you lack social life in high school? Sorry but that’s pathetic.
Our need of privacy also leads us to the right way. Privacy is my favorite word. Five points for Maslow. Sam, one of our cheerleaders needs this so much. I can’t take it if I see her again freeze-kissing’s some jackass football player at the school cafeteria. Go see for yourself Ms. Jyles. During lunch. At the side doors near the bathroom.
He also said that we need to be independent about our culture and our nature. My head hurts when I think about what I want to say on this one. If you want to know more about our culture, then read a freaking history book. And by nature, read a boring environmental science crap thingy. You might learn in there. If you didn’t sleep at all.
The thing that I don’t get is why do we try to be self-actualized anyway? I mean, if we will try to do things the right way on everything that we do, will that make us… US? It will appear, or should I say, feel like that we live in a lie. We pretend to live in a way. We have a very meaningful life because we are all different. Not everybody can do those things at one time. Another five points to Maslow for including the fact that knowing the difference between evil and good is one step.
I’m going to sleep Ms. Jules. I don’t know why we have to write a five-page essay on this junk. Oh and sorry if my pen kept changing colors. It’s my girlfriend’s. You know Aly? I think she’s in your second period class. She forgot to return my pen. And I don’t’ have an extra so I don’t have a choice but to use it. You told us we can’t use a pencil.
Anyway, back to my self-actualization essay.
If I were to suggest to to Maslow what makes us self-actualized.. It would have to be LOVE. Love changes everything. When you’re hit by it, you don’t think at all. Please don’t tell my buds that I wrote some heinous words as love here. They’ll think I’m cheesy again.
Oh there’s another note here on my notebook about self-actualization. It says, imperfections make us a self-actualized person. Oh well, never mind what I wrote on top. Like everything. I didn’t see that one. ROFL, I knew it! He could be right somehow. In a way.
Ayt, I’m so done with this. I’m excited on my grade.
© Xelfualizee by Jessica Concha
Cool essay right? 😀
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O-MY-Geeee. what to do?! what will i pack ba? ugh! i hate this kaya ayaw ko umalis ng bahay ee. I’ll miss my bed!!! huhuhu
Class Prophecy
As I watched the stars in the sky, memories suddenly came across my mind. I saw some familiar faces that used to be with me when we were all young.
A stunning and gorgeous lady Anne Catherine Bernadette Capistrano was the one who is industrious, intelligent, God-fearing and intelligent. Her intelligence will lead her to be one of the best Architects and Fashion Designer who models her own works.
With a great sense of humor and a generous heart, I can see Clint Ashley Domingo as one of the successful Businessmen and Engineers. His ability to make everyone laugh because of his interpersonal skills will help him in managing his business.
Whenever I hear the phrase “Math Wizard”, my mind immediately picture Joel Esquivel Jr., a gentleman who has a heart of gold even though he’s arrogant at times. Whenever trouble comes across our class, he is always there to save us. With this attitude, I foresee him as one of the friendliest and reliable Engineers while his strength and agility can lead him to the world of basketball.
A guy who is devoted to God is very admirable, among my friends, I can name Rigilkent Paul Estrella as one. The Lord had given him talents such as the ability to dance gracefully and the dexterity of his hands in playing a guitar. I can clearly see him as a talented preacher and surgeon who dedicates all his hardships for his family and most especially to the Lord.
Adrian Joseph Gaddi, a gentleman who is innately intelligent. He is the class’ dictionary. He might be moody at times, yet he is always there to help whenever you have problems regarding your computer. You can likely depend on him. With this, I can foresee him as one of the best Computer Analysts.
Juzsper Avery Gimeno, a guy who is simple and carefree. He doesn’t care about what others might think of him. His fighting spirit will lead him to the world of Lawyers. I can see him as a lawyer who fights for what he thinks is right.
The class’ boy next door, Carl Joshua Marcial is someone you can rely on. His ability to speak confidently will surely lead him to be a Certified Public Accountant. Carrying his sense of humor and good looks, I see him as a model that has a lot of fans.
Alliana Marie Mendoza, a petite lady who is fond of reading books. With her passion in writing and patience in reading, I foresee her as one of the best writers. She will write books which every person would want to read and have while her skills in drawing can also lead her to be a great Architect.
A devoted worshiper of God, Paola Andrea Mendoza, she has a great voice which she always use to worship God. Her faith will lead her to the success that she longs to achieve. I can see that she will be a lovely Pediatrician for she is fond of children. The talent in singing she has will lead her to be a vocalist of a Christian Band.
Someone who is organized and patient is Luis Jhoshua Padilla. He is a gentleman who is respectful and caring. His ability to face the crowd confidently will open him a route as a dignified Lawyer.
The campus’ best friend is Earvin John Parulan. He is a gentleman at heart. His congeniality will lead him to be a successful Businessman and a distributor of Silver Swan products in the whole region III.
Angelica Pascual will always carry herself with a great assurance in life. She is a committed follower of God. I can see her as a prosperous Pharmacist and a very loving mother.
A person who has a passion in cars is Jonathan Lawrence Sergio. He is a man with few words who is indeed knowledgeable. The Lord had given him a great talent in drawing. I foresee him as one of the known Cartoonists. With a great passion in cars, I know that he’ll be a famous racer.
Paula Faye Turado, a talented lady who is the most responsible student in our class. She is one of the friendliest person I ever met. Her patience and passion in studying will help her achieve the career she dreams of. She has a gift of gab which will eventually lead her as a world renowned news anchor. The sound of my car brought me back to my senses, I bid my farewell to those familiar faces.
As I got up, I found myself leaping through time. I saw a girl who is high-spirited. She had a passion for church music which led her to the world of praise and worship team. She passed through her own journey towards life and God. There are people who passed by her life, while some retained and continued loving her. Her experiences led her to what she is right now. She is now a successful Businesswoman who always shares whatever things she can share to other people. She is now satisfied with her life and now, that girl is reminiscing who she was before; that girl who was once a weak, dependent and stubborn is now a strong, independent and witty young lady, that girl is I – Faith Hanna Mendoza.
Faith Hanna Mendoza
January 2013
I was once blinded by LOVE
Once in a person’s lifetime, everyone finds this one perfect person whom they fall hopelessly in love with and live happily ever after. Although this kind of stories only happen in a dream or fantasy, people still hold on to their dreams to stay with the person the love.
While looking in my own reflection in water, I suddenly remember the times when I used to hold my phone for some important call. Whenever our late-night conversation starts, the music in my head starts to play also, but now, I can barely hear the music and it’s starting to fade.
Our conversation lasted until the month of January. Suddenly, the class were gone the messages were gone too and the old him was gone forever. I can feel the pain in my body and it slowly kills me. Should I fight for him or should I let him go? Why can’t I answer those questions? Why am I crying just to look for the answer? What’s this all about?
Many people have said, “Love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly.” Well, for me, he is far from being perfect. There’s something in him that captivates my heart. What’s so good about him anyway? Is it his smile? Is it his face? Is it his attitude? I don’t know, but I am falling hard, a little harder more each day.
Love changed the way people think, act and decide. But what’s with love that people keep holding on? Is it simply the person or the memories they share with?
I found pain and happiness in love- but it doesn’t matter now, happiness in every simple moment with him and pain that slowly kills me inside. Nevertheless, this experience made me a stronger person. Falling in love is really a complicated thing.
Faith Hanna Mendoza
August 31, 2012
(Revised)
I don’t speak or write fluently in English so sorry for the grammatical errors. 😛 Enjoy!
This one is dedicated to my ex-boyfriend :))) hahaha.
Love and Reality 